Merle Gebauer & Tabea Antonacci

Merle Gebauer grew up in the south of Germany, where she fell in love with different movement styles and with performing on stage in dance and theatre. In 2017 she moved to Berlin to start her contemporary dance education at DANCEWORKS Berlin, where she graduated in 2020. Currently, she is studying at Berlin Dance Institute. Alongside her studies, she gained experiences as a dancer in various performances and also as a choreographer. In her work, she enjoys exploring the softness of the body and spine and drawing inspiration from stories and emotions, along with playing with the impact of music on her dancing.

Tabea Antonacci is a dancer currently based in Berlin. After graduating, a year of traveling, and a bachelor of sports science, she finally accepted her desire to dance full-time. In 2019 she moved to Palamós, Spain, and started her dance education at Cobosmika. In October 2020, she moved to Berlin, where she is now a student at Tanzfabrik’s Dance Intensive Program. Her first piece, Aber man kann., was created with Marie Hufnagel in 2017. Tabi loves bodies, their uniqueness, and different structures. She loves to move, being moved, and to move others. That’s why she is now interested in working on topics that connect people, raise questions and thoughts, or transport emotions.

Daily Soap

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Wenn Sie schimmernd durch die Lüfte fliegen und mit ihrem Glanz die Umgebung verzaubern 

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Gefüllt mit Fantasien und Träumen 

Mit lautem Gelächter und stillen Tränen

So fühl ich mich

Vom Wind getrieben 

Durch die Luft getragen 

So voll und leer zugleich

Ausgelaugt und tief erfüllt

Energetisch, müde

Angst vor Überforderung 

Wo steht mein Kopf

Wo fangen meine Gedanken an

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Eine neue Seifenblase zieht vorbei

Schimmernd bricht sich das Licht auf ihrer Oberfläche 

Und ich lasse mich mit ihr treiben

just
let me go
let me fall
I am not scared of crashing
but scared of standing still
just
let me go
let me disappear
you don´t own me anymore
I am no longer your prisoner

(BODY) Parts

Charlie Chaplin oder Tatort?

hide & seek

sitting so silently
hearing my own heartbeat
racing
pounding in my ear
scared to be seen
my senses are heightened
but nothing to see
nothing to hear
life just carried on
you just carried on
starting to panic
when did this game turn into a nightmare?
then numb
the adrenaline is gone
empty
what if nobody ever finds me?

Morning Routine

Wake up. Be happy. The sun is shining. Go for a run. Sweat everything out. Come back exhausted, but awake and happy. Do some yoga. Take a refreshing shower. Drink a delicious coffee, eat a healthy breakfast. Go to work with all the energy you gained from your morning routine. 

and then
I lost myself

worse than ever before
paralyzed by fear
destroying myself
broken pieces
shattered all over the cold floor
reflecting smiles and laughter
from a past self
it feels like a lifetime away
screaming that one question:

what happened to you?

Snippets

The sun is slowly going down.
Sometimes I feel totally knocked out, totally empty and drained.
I can take space, I can feel these feelings!
My happy place, where I can go, when I’m not sure. Where good vibes are, which gives me freedom.
Wow, so much happened in a month.
So much vibration in my chest, so much energy & charge. But everything is very nice. So much intimacy.
The sun is shining, I’ll have to go outside soon.
OMGGGG! I’m doing so well right now! I am fulfilled and inspired.
Ok, I have to keep this feeling.
If you want to breathe in the whole world, you have to breathe out every now and then.
The sky is gray, but I’m in bed with my cleansing candle lit.
So many different worlds. And I just didn’t have enough time for everything. The hours are too few for a day. I just have to learn to perceive, accept and implement my needs. But I always want to do everything and all at once.
There is this very deep feeling in me. That scares me a lot.
The emotional state is really exciting!
Everyone had to touch and rediscover each other.
I can’t decide on a topic.
It’s already the beginning of February, time goes by so quickly! But as I learned, everything is a process. There is no such thing as arriving, so you have to make your way beautiful.
It’s really fun and I can feel the fire coming up inside of me.
I’m in a really good mood and everything was so funny and beautiful.
Somehow I’m totally sick right now.
And then there was techno.
Then tears came to me right away. I don’t know from where exactly.