Finding direction

The research phase produced a lot of material and ideas, but without a clear goal it was difficult to put it together. 

Part of the problem was, that while making the self-portrait I was at the same time the creator, the performer and the subject. For a while my mind was overwhelmed by this and I struggled to put my thoughts in order. Normally, I easily imagine people and events on stage, but during this specific process I lacked the distance and perspective to see the piece clearly. At some point, I figured, I needed to create an entity; a character I could identify with, that would take the spotlight and give me, as a creator, the vantage point to direct the piece better.

I always draw a lot of inspiration from my dreams. So far in the process of making the solo, I had not considered using dreams. After some time spent on thinking, I got this idea that dream reality would be a fitting scenery for my character, because fears and anxieties often appear in dreams while we process them. I was also seriously drawn to the absurd way dreams portray every-day issues so I found myself coming back on and on to this concept. After a while, I realized that inadvertently my imagination had found its focus.

Slowly, a clearer image of my entity appeared. Who was it, how did it move and with what quality informed the use of space and dynamics, and the type of a relationship I would try to build with the audience. With those answers, the first concrete idea for structure of the solo appeared. 

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1 month ago

Milla, your posts are all very interesting for me to read/see! =) This video with the shower also gave me a very nice feeling and I can’t really say why.

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1 month ago

I love how the image first appears to be a photo, and then turns into something that moves when the feet come in!